yesterday was a emotional roller coaster. started off with am clinic at west coast, we had to perform general eyechecks for the elderly referred from the screening at boonkeng under the LION BEFRIENDERS. that was the first time i felt ever so helpless in front of patients, not that they are demanding or anything bad. instead they're just so nice and grateful towards us, even though all we can do for them is in fact close to nothing significant.

had a male patient who was 73 this year his right eye couldnt see anything except hand movements at 10cm, just 'cos of a bad fall during his childhood years. then came the 92years old ah ma who triggered off my string of emotions. all i could do for her was to check the health of the anterior eye which is already in a severe condition. i really felt lousy, its just so frustrating to be unable to help someone like her. with my limited Hokkien vocab, i just tried to converse her, which was not a easy task as she's hard of hearing. technology was really bad 30-40years ago, her surgery was so poorly done that her iris is very distorted. whoever did her iridectomy was freaking lousy, she ended up with her big hole instead of a smaller one in her iris. now it looks like she has 2 pupils in both eyes. my last patient was a 90 year old ah ma whom i screened with esther at boon keng. holding onto her while she walks, really makes me feel that all this elderly are so vulnerable.

the sense of guilt in me was so high that i really couldnt take it. its just so saddening to see all of them in such conditions and living alone while not seeing well. the guilt came especially when they look at us with such gratitude on their faces. little did they know that all we did is to check for them and refer them if required. we're not the doctors who can treat them, lending a helping hand was all that we could do.

mr seow told me not to be too harsh on myself, as there's always a limit to one's capability to help others. but i couldnt control my emotions, life's so unfair to those who are poor.

as expected, i did poorly for my grading. but that's no longer significant as compared to the situation the elderly are in right now.

why is it that nobody else seems to be affected?

met up with the guys (jaymond, wei xiang, charles & jeffrey) for wx's belated bday celebration at Turf City's Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant. call me a mountain turtle or whatever, but i think its really cool to see live seafood in the different tanks. food was nice, so was the company. (:

jay drove us back to jurong safra and we played L4D! haha its the first time i played the game, but surprisingly i could control the character quite well. L4D is much more fun than DOTA lah.

this is what i meant by my emotional roller coaster.

haha this video is good for a short moment of laughter amidst revision.

had lunch with class girls at pizza hut today, too bad amanda and the guys had things to attend to during the break, if not we could have a class lunch. (: next time then. anyways was chatting with shirlyn last night on msn that we should study tgt during the 2 hr break, we ended up spending those 2 hours eating and gossiping. tsktsktsk this shows how much discipline we have. at least we dont speak hokkien and interact with each other using 'sign language' like one of our juniors, internal joke of the day.

i'm liking my not-so-new class more and more. (:

well, today started off with b.boey's presentation which i think i screw up. cos i seriously dont know whether i answered bingsheng's question during the Q&A session. hahaha it was expected that he would ask us questions, but his question really caught me off guard. and i sort of answered too much, imagine the lecturer had to say 'erm give yuwei a chance to talk.' oh man.

filming is just a 'un-real' process. if you have read my previous entry, you would know about the filming of a video to promote our optometry centre. for that 10 to 15minutes of filming, i felt like a puppet big time. i had to smile smile and smile in front of the camera when talking to the 'patient', whom i think is from their company. no wonder artistes dont smile as much off-cam, its very irritating to have someone else control your facial expression. dang i feel like a plastic doll - extreme 'plastic-ness' if there's ever such a word to describe that feeling.





today was a torture for my feet. firstly there was clinic and secondly there was roadshow (and they didnt put chairs at the booth outside main lib.) booked clement as my patient for GE & SCL, and he camwhored in the consultation room openly. yes, i mean very openly. hahaha he was very fascinated by the coloured lenses i fitted on him. anyways clement, if you're reading this, thanks for coming (:

ran the roadshow at main lib from 2-4. that was the first time i really feel that the distance from spoc to lib is really long. maybe its my heels that are the problem. i'm so not going to wear them again tml for the razortv filming. apparently they are coming to film a video as a form of marketing for spoc. hopefully more people will come and book appointments, if not it'll be difficult to find our own patients all the time.

i'm keeping my fingers crossed for tml's presentation!


just realised that i forgot to blog about CLS Graduation Party. hmmm maybe i dont appreciate rock music that much, so sitting through a rock concert isnt my cup of tea. anyways the main purpose of us dopt people going is to support our friends -shirlyn, king chi, eng heng, john, ling li and cheng yang! we waited and waited for their performance. honestly i like their performance the most, hahaha call me biased or whatever, i dont care. they did us really proud. (:

links to their performance [video courtesy of ridzuan]
http://www.facebook.com/#/video/video.php?v=184960872607&ref=mf (part 1)
http://www.facebook.com/#/video/video.php?v=184972462607 (part 2)

enjoy watching!


the new timetable is evil, i swear. i hardly get to see my girlies in a week, except if we arrange to meet up to do fyp. dang i really miss their company. make that, A LOT underlined, bold and what not. anyways i'm really glad that they are coping well with school and other stuff after reading their blogs. see how pathetic the situation is? i have to know what's going on with my friends through their blogs.




well, i guess i've got to count my blessings too. i have congling yuwei evan as groupmates and lunchmates, spending most of my days with them. not forgetting the company of shirlyn, kelvin, bing sheng and hweeying too. if i dont have these people around me, i'll probably end up a loner.







i miss them both. :(

yesterday was a emotional roller coaster. started off with am clinic at west coast, we had to perform general eyechecks for the elderly referred from the screening at boonkeng under the LION BEFRIENDERS. that was the first time i felt ever so helpless in front of patients, not that they are demanding or anything bad. instead they're just so nice and grateful towards us, even though all we can do for them is in fact close to nothing significant.

had a male patient who was 73 this year his right eye couldnt see anything except hand movements at 10cm, just 'cos of a bad fall during his childhood years. then came the 92years old ah ma who triggered off my string of emotions. all i could do for her was to check the health of the anterior eye which is already in a severe condition. i really felt lousy, its just so frustrating to be unable to help someone like her. with my limited Hokkien vocab, i just tried to converse her, which was not a easy task as she's hard of hearing. technology was really bad 30-40years ago, her surgery was so poorly done that her iris is very distorted. whoever did her iridectomy was freaking lousy, she ended up with her big hole instead of a smaller one in her iris. now it looks like she has 2 pupils in both eyes. my last patient was a 90 year old ah ma whom i screened with esther at boon keng. holding onto her while she walks, really makes me feel that all this elderly are so vulnerable.

the sense of guilt in me was so high that i really couldnt take it. its just so saddening to see all of them in such conditions and living alone while not seeing well. the guilt came especially when they look at us with such gratitude on their faces. little did they know that all we did is to check for them and refer them if required. we're not the doctors who can treat them, lending a helping hand was all that we could do.

mr seow told me not to be too harsh on myself, as there's always a limit to one's capability to help others. but i couldnt control my emotions, life's so unfair to those who are poor.

as expected, i did poorly for my grading. but that's no longer significant as compared to the situation the elderly are in right now.

why is it that nobody else seems to be affected?

met up with the guys (jaymond, wei xiang, charles & jeffrey) for wx's belated bday celebration at Turf City's Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant. call me a mountain turtle or whatever, but i think its really cool to see live seafood in the different tanks. food was nice, so was the company. (:

jay drove us back to jurong safra and we played L4D! haha its the first time i played the game, but surprisingly i could control the character quite well. L4D is much more fun than DOTA lah.

this is what i meant by my emotional roller coaster.

haha this video is good for a short moment of laughter amidst revision.

had lunch with class girls at pizza hut today, too bad amanda and the guys had things to attend to during the break, if not we could have a class lunch. (: next time then. anyways was chatting with shirlyn last night on msn that we should study tgt during the 2 hr break, we ended up spending those 2 hours eating and gossiping. tsktsktsk this shows how much discipline we have. at least we dont speak hokkien and interact with each other using 'sign language' like one of our juniors, internal joke of the day.

i'm liking my not-so-new class more and more. (:

well, today started off with b.boey's presentation which i think i screw up. cos i seriously dont know whether i answered bingsheng's question during the Q&A session. hahaha it was expected that he would ask us questions, but his question really caught me off guard. and i sort of answered too much, imagine the lecturer had to say 'erm give yuwei a chance to talk.' oh man.

filming is just a 'un-real' process. if you have read my previous entry, you would know about the filming of a video to promote our optometry centre. for that 10 to 15minutes of filming, i felt like a puppet big time. i had to smile smile and smile in front of the camera when talking to the 'patient', whom i think is from their company. no wonder artistes dont smile as much off-cam, its very irritating to have someone else control your facial expression. dang i feel like a plastic doll - extreme 'plastic-ness' if there's ever such a word to describe that feeling.





today was a torture for my feet. firstly there was clinic and secondly there was roadshow (and they didnt put chairs at the booth outside main lib.) booked clement as my patient for GE & SCL, and he camwhored in the consultation room openly. yes, i mean very openly. hahaha he was very fascinated by the coloured lenses i fitted on him. anyways clement, if you're reading this, thanks for coming (:

ran the roadshow at main lib from 2-4. that was the first time i really feel that the distance from spoc to lib is really long. maybe its my heels that are the problem. i'm so not going to wear them again tml for the razortv filming. apparently they are coming to film a video as a form of marketing for spoc. hopefully more people will come and book appointments, if not it'll be difficult to find our own patients all the time.

i'm keeping my fingers crossed for tml's presentation!


just realised that i forgot to blog about CLS Graduation Party. hmmm maybe i dont appreciate rock music that much, so sitting through a rock concert isnt my cup of tea. anyways the main purpose of us dopt people going is to support our friends -shirlyn, king chi, eng heng, john, ling li and cheng yang! we waited and waited for their performance. honestly i like their performance the most, hahaha call me biased or whatever, i dont care. they did us really proud. (:

links to their performance [video courtesy of ridzuan]
http://www.facebook.com/#/video/video.php?v=184960872607&ref=mf (part 1)
http://www.facebook.com/#/video/video.php?v=184972462607 (part 2)

enjoy watching!


the new timetable is evil, i swear. i hardly get to see my girlies in a week, except if we arrange to meet up to do fyp. dang i really miss their company. make that, A LOT underlined, bold and what not. anyways i'm really glad that they are coping well with school and other stuff after reading their blogs. see how pathetic the situation is? i have to know what's going on with my friends through their blogs.




well, i guess i've got to count my blessings too. i have congling yuwei evan as groupmates and lunchmates, spending most of my days with them. not forgetting the company of shirlyn, kelvin, bing sheng and hweeying too. if i dont have these people around me, i'll probably end up a loner.







i miss them both. :(

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